My Inner phoenix…
I want to remember what it feels like to not be in constant, crippling pain! You see – the reason why it is so bad right now is because I have lost the will to exercise 🙄🤬 that makes me mad! But give it a few days for my foot to heal and ill be exercising again – omg it’s like I’m 100!
Omg aspiring Fit Pro is falling flat on her face – wait… No, I’m not, not even close.
See what it does to me? It lights fire deep, deep down inside me, but it’s more than that. I do it for my boys #1 than my family. I used to be so selfish, now I’m not. Life nearly got taken away from me… I’m still here! It makes me see – I am larger than life, whether I like to say it or not, I am. What’s awesome that I’m able to actually say it now!
Chronic pain however keeps me grounded to remind me – “Yeah your larger than life, your not bulletproof!” I will always be a bit of a tool because I know how bad my mental health has been over the years and I just want to make people laugh! Even if it means making them shake their heads first. 🤷♀️🤪 but hey – at least I own it!
I don’t know what the future holds, but I do know this is MY time to build an empire. My inner phoenix is ready to saw her wings and fly… I name her Aubrey… It means elf ruler in English… she likes coffee.
Watch. This. Space!